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Yesterday really put feeling alone into perspective. Kaitlyn and Kyle were there, they obviously showed up together. The whole night they stood together, I felt really worthless. Bonus: most of my friends are in relationships or close to beginning relationships with people they like. My friend really seemed to be hitting it off with the girl he likes. A lot of the weeaboo kids were reveling in the nerdy relationships. Then I see all the fools like me who don't have anyone. It seems there are a fair amount of people who don't care about a relationship. They are fine with being single. Usually I would say to each their own, but now I say fuck those cunts. I would be happy being with anybody, any girl could start hitting on me and I'd go with it. Desparate? Maybe, but what's wrong with that?

It's spring, the season of life and love. Everything is blossoming. Everyday for me feels like the weather yesterday. Hope for good, but it turns out to be cold, gray, and dead. Maybe I have control of the weather. I guess if the bad weather keeps up I will be able to better grasp my powers. At the end of the night it got warmer and the slush started slopping down from the trees. It felt really good, hope for tomorrow I suppose. Knowing this is Ohio, it could very well snow tomorrow too.

My radio show was a dissaster on three legs. I got there 5 minutes late and Rich C Money was there. He took over the first half hour of my show, then told me I was a sucky DJ, I was going to
play a lot of Urban and Hip-Hop that night, and that I'd have to do some remote broadcasts while he was at one of the bar/clubs in BG. He left. Then the equipment had a malfunction and an alarm went off. I wasn't able to play some stuff I really wanted to and I was really stressed out over everything. Plus, all I had eaten that day was one slice of pizza, I had 4 hours of sleep the prevoius night, I had been working at Animarathon all day, and I was feeling lonely as fuck.

Things have got to get better one of these days. Maybe I'll get a shiny Pidgey.

Oh well, the dude abides...